The Creased Pages

I think too much. I've always known this to be true, and I'm fairly sure it's a feature of mine that doesn't go unnoticed to others. Especially seeing as my overthinking tends to be the catalyst of my incessant worrying. A lot has changed within the past year, in both good ways and bad, and it's safe to say that at one point, things got more than a little tough.

I can't deny that I'm a very emotional person. It's so obvious; it would be pointless even trying to deny it. In school, I was the cry-baby of the class. It really wouldn't take much to set me off, which is quite embarrassing to admit. I was the goody-two-shoes of the class too; I was never really told off properly, so I can't even blame it on that. Although, thinking about it, maybe that would have helped toughen me up a bit. I haven't exactly grown out of being that fuzzball of emotion, but it has adapted and is focused around slightly less trivial things. Thankfully I'm no longer of an age where I go all teary if I'm told I have to eat those spaghetti hoops in my school dinner, whether I like them or not. (Yes. I was that bad.) While I don't burst into tears at the smallest thing like I used to, I do still let things go to heart more than I should. To paraphrase McBusted: I'm just a sensitive girl.

The last few posts have been my attempt at giving you something of an insight into the 'real me'. The person I really am underneath this shell I usually wear while writing sarcastic tweets and putting some kind of humorous edge on each my blog posts. I wanted to continue that into this one. My job now gives me a fair bit of time to 'zone out' and think about things in more depth than I usually would. Therefore, this is going to be made up of a combination of those thoughts, as well as one or two of the monologues I dream up while I'm in a world of my own. I'm a worrier. That's a pretty well known fact by now. In fact, I've been told several times by people I know that I worry too much. I've always replied to say 'No, I worry just the right amount'. But maybe they're right.